SephirothSpirit

There is a video game called Journey on PS3 and if you have never heard of it you owe it to yourself to look it up it's the best game I have ever played and I don't say that lightly. I do wish it were longer but it's so perfect at it's 2 hour length I almost am glad it's so short. I cried after finishing it the first time and still had similar wonderment the second and third. I'm sure I'll most likely have fan art for it at some point but WOW!

I've also been playing Halo 4 which is a lot of fun. I've never really been a fan of shooters but a local friend convinced me so I went out and bought  Halo 4 limited Edition Xbox 360 which came with the game and I have to say I've had nothing but fun with it since. I've never had an Xbox before and never played Halo. I have to say I can finally see the appeal! Tons of fun! I've also played some Borderlands 2 but not all that much since I got Journey.

Hope everyone had a great Holiday mine really sucked actually but at least it's over now.

On the art front we will see where it goes from here but my creative spark has been pretty dead in the water. Mostly motivation and lack of inspiration. I have some paint by numbers to keep me busy with the act of painting but they are far from art. Watercolors are hard but I insist on making them work for me they are too pretty.

I do hope to go back and comment on favorites I've done I'm sorry I don't do it more but anything I favorite is an inspiration or I wouldn't bother to do it all so thank you in return for making art and sharing on here and letting me harvest it in my favorites for later inspiration!

Happy New Year!

Decided to change my medium up and instead of just colored pencils I went out and bought Sakura Watercolors. Whether they actually teach you anything or not I also bought paint by numbers to practice my brush handling skills which certainly need work! Still glad to be back in the world of art though don't count your blessings yet because I don't even know where to start with what to paint or create.

Worse case scenario I figure out how to include watercolors into a zine idea I had but I doubt that would work since zines need to be replicated usually lacking color. Again we shall see....at least I haven't given up on art just yet....

So life has taken a turn in a million directions starting a new art project may be too much for me at the moment but I'm up for suggestions at this point.

Braces update got 4 bicuspids pulled and I will get two more bands and top braces in about a week now. Was to get it on a saturday but now it will be a wednesday evening due to bad scheduling at the orthodontist that I'm not to happy about and this seems to be the second time I've been displeased in this process but I'm screwed now since I got my teeth pulled. I won't be getting bottom braces till the tooth in the roof of my mouth moves into place which may take about 3 months. I'm still on for just 18 months but I'm not being optimistic about that right now. Not with the way things have been going. Not sure how I will deal with going to work the day after getting braces on the top I was hoping for at least one day for a test run but it's either I get them then or wait till mid august(long story).

Anyway I'm still enjoying surfing deviant art, on bad days going through my favorites and looking at what other artists are doing is very inspiring and I wonder why I left deviant art. Seems the quality or artists has really gotten huge and it's nice to see. Not sure how people are able to do so much art, I can barely find the time to watch movies or tv shows let alone sit and draw. So little inspires me though.

Whatever I suppose I'm tired.

Now that I'm calmer from being in intense pain and extreme discomfort for 2 days(nonstop), I apparently decided it would be a good idea to get braces. I've needed them for years and finally for some reason decided now would be a good time. Somehow I thought I would be explained in detail all that would happen to me and while I was I didn't ask enough questions that I understood what was going on. I don't necessarily at this point blame anyone but it still would have been really nice to be better prepared for what happened the last 2 days but for now that's all I'll say. Until the damn things are on and I'm use to them and my teeth are pulled will I be able to start thinking more positively about it. Now that I know the pain does go away and doesn't last forever I think I'm better than I was when I started with no expectation what so ever except a bunch of people explaining to me it's a good idea. hard to believe when it literally feels someone is trying to pull your teeth out through your gums all day and all night. Still trying to get use to the fact that for the next few years I will not be eating normally or have my mouth feel all that comfortable. 2 years is a long damn time and I had a lot of hopefully plans I'm reluctant to try at this point. I was in pain and confused as to why so I kinda went nuts on top of everything and hoping I didn't angry everyone I made contact with, though I'm not really sorry I honestly was just so overwhelmed I just didn't know how else to react. I now know what a scared suffering animal feels like. Hopefully it gets easier from here on but not keeping my hopes up, so long as I have time this weekend to somehow get my brain to understand what can happen and prepare accordingly. I really just snapped don't know what else to say.

I did however before this finished my project which is the Wolf's Rain characters, all of the wolves pretty much. Put up Tsume and Kiba which I actually started 8 years ago and finally finished. The rest I recently drew and will put up as I have time this weekend. Need some ideas for a new project to keep my creative energies up.

So the world didn't end but I am much closer to finishing what I promised in my last entry not that I have any new followers that care but felt like mentioning. I inked some of the old drawings I did and I like how that is turning out so they aren't quite ready to put up on Deviant art yet. Been getting into social activities, work and yet another health related thing so kinda drawing in between. When I have this up and finished I will have to figure out what else I want to work on. What I'm working on now is 'fanart' so hopefully I can come up with something original to do but with the little time I have these days fanart at least gets me drawing which makes me happy. The fact I am drawing at all these days is a true miracle for me personally. After graduating art school and having such a hard time finding a job in something creative and not currently having the job I was hoping for really has made me a bit down on thoughts of being an artist so it kinda killed everything I had left for a creative output.

I recently got tattoos and the whole experience has made me want to be creative again and try to at least express myself with fanart and images that make me happy. I love art in all it's forms and while I'll never be good enough not drawing at all will only make me feel worse about myself and the possible talents I may or may not have. There will always be someone better than you but you will never be the best if you don't do anything. Rather cynical but it's motivating to me.